2:00 am

So it is about 2:00 in the am and I am wide awake and cant go to sleep. After laying in bed for 30 minutes trying to fall asleep after I watched all of the ridiculous shows that I love to watch (Bachelor Pad/Dating in the Dark) I figured I might as well wake up and do something with my alone/ quiet time. So what did I decide to do, fold laundry and check my emails. Now that that is done I figure I should maybe update my blog since I have been so horrible about updates and it is only going to get worse once I go back to work. It actually could get better b/c I like to take what I call brain breaks at lunch, and updating the blog is a good brain break.
So these could be the reasons why I am not sleeping at this hour that I haven't seen in a very long time... Jack is going to be starting preschool in 3 weeks from tomorrow (or actually today), Addison will not take a bottle, Addison will not let anyone else hold her for more then 5-10 minutes without screaming and searching the room for me, and I am going back to work in less then 2 weeks. I have been with my kids or should I say surrounded by my kids for the past 16 weeks. It is going to be really weird not having my kids with me and having 23 other kids surrounding me for 8 hours of the day. That means I will be spending more time with somebody elses kids then my own. Does that seem right? Not really. I will actually be having real conversations and not only talking about fire trucks and trash trucks that highlight Jacks life right now.
Addie has become quite the mommas girl, but can you blame her. Her dad works 7 days a week and I have been to lazy to get her feeding from the bottle which means she has not left me for more then 2 hours, and that was only once. We have been a package deal. A pretty good package if you ask me. And wouldn't you know since I have decided to try the bottle feeding and need to pump my wonderful dog decided to take a piece of the pump (a major piece) from off of the counter and chew it up one day while we weren't home. So now that I am on a time crunch I have to wait for this piece which you can only order online to arrive in the mail. Thank you Kona for making my life a little more difficult. So back to Addie loving her mom. It breaks my heart when she gets so sad and wont calm down that her face is bright red and she actually has tears running down her chunky monkey cheeks. I don't know if you know this but when babies are first born they don't make tears, it takes a while for that to happen and Addison is just starting to make tears. I don't know what it is that she can sense about me, but she knows it is me within a second of being back in my arms.
I am excited for Jack to be going to school and to be going to school with me is even more exciting. That means we have been successful in the potty training department. Lets just hope it stays that way. I'm a little nervous that the teachers will get to see how my son is. It is going to be his first experience being with someone all day that isn't a family member or close friend. I'm just dreading that I will get a call in my class from his teacher or worse... the office.
Well I think my little man who still doesn't always sleep through the night is jumping into my bed as I type so I should probably go and claim my spot in the bed.
I am going to need a very strong coffee tomorrow. If you see me there will be some type of caffeine in my hand at all times with some blood shot eyes to go with it.

Night night!